It still feels like limbo. What to do next?

Previously here I wrote in reaction to the result that had just happened and was extremely angry and drunk, thanks Brexiteers for that. It has taken me days to calm down inside, I simply cannot believe that England has so many unenlightened people who treated such a big decision as a one issue ballot. Its breathtaking in its ignorance and stupidity, and will remain that way for ever. History will certainly judge that vote as the day that Xenophobia won an election over what was actually good for the nation and its future. I know in my heart that people will cope and we’ll have to move forward and simply deal with all of the fall out but I doubt that this is an issue that is over and it’ll roll on for many more years to come. It’s just such an extraordinary thing to have happened and given that we now have no Prime Minster and a treacherous opposition in Labour with their ousting attempts on Jeremy Corbyn,

I’m angry at the total lack of a post Brexit plan. Why wasn’t there one? Surely if you fight an election campaign, like the one that we saw fought by the racists and the Xenophobes, you’d plan for your new British, white utopia, free from immigrants and global investment? But we’ve seen nothing and many politicians, including MEP Daniel Hannan, have spoken out that they simply didn’t have a plan because they didn’t expect to win. Hannan said on Newsnight, “Frankly, if people watching think that they have voted and there is now going to be zero immigration from the EU, they are going to be disappointed.”

Don’t fight for something you don’t want, because if you get it, you will have to own it and understand me, people will make sure each and every one of the Brexit leaders will be made to account from now onwards for what happens to this country, for good or bad. They have won a race they didn’t want to and now are shying away from ownership. If you ran a sneaky campaign that talked about immigration and then say that immigration actually won’t change anyway, and the decision to leave is simply about being outside of the EU, then you will be just as accountable to the voters who supported you, who don’t want that, as you are to those of us who didn’t want our membership of the EU to be ended.

It’s not David Camerons or George Osbourns fault, they campaigned to stay, and I strongly agree with Cameron’s decision to leave office and refuse to invoke Article 50 of the Lisbon Treaty. The odds are that the next PM will be a Brexit supporter and its right that one of those clowns goes down in history as pressing the button, why should Cameron damage himself any further? He’s already allowed the referendum to happen in the first place (of all the manifesto promises to keep David), and he wanted to stay, I finally have some respect for him for as good as saying “Sleep in the shit-pile you made for yourselves, I’m done!”

Nigel Farage has been an outspoken critic of the EU for decades and so we already knew what his position and agenda was. We cannot argue that he wears his ideology and his opinions on his sleeve and so no one supporting him doesn’t already know what they are getting into or who they are dealing with, unless they are completely fucking stupid, which is also likely. We also have to remember what he represents and which party he is leader of. UKIP is the acceptable face of the right wing in the UK, the far right. I spoke previously about how they have stolen supporters from all parties by blaming ‘foreigners’ rather than each other and Farage is extremely good at being able to say what anyone, who is apathetic and wants to hear something different, wants to hear. He has made intolerance and blind, flag waving patriotism acceptable and the undercurrent of racism that exists in Britain has been a well that he has tapped into perfectly and the narrative of this campaign has seen his will and people’s ignorance come together and explode like a volcano of prejudice that has now leaked its intolerant magma into the streets and homes of us all, whether we wanted to be coated in its soul destroying heat or not.

The morning of the result this purple rosette wearing, frog faced, oxygen thief appeared on Good Morning Britain with the easy on the eye Suzanna Reid and a carbon based life form of little note called Piers. During their chat, Reid asked him about the £350m a week figure to which he admitted ‘it was a mistake to say that.’ This interview is worth watching, many of you will have seen it, as he as good as admits the Leave campaign was not a cohesive, coalition, because he says that the campaign wording was a mistake and says that it was also not his words or part of his campaign. Watch it. Its pitiful. It’s more proof that the lunatics saw a flag to wave, an agreeable protest they could shout about, and they just ran with it and the media just lumped them altogether as THE LEAVE CAMPAIGN. The ill-planned, ill-organised, ill-informed side won. They did it simply, with lies and deceit. Of course they have no plan, they are collection of idiots who got lucky with lies.

In May, Farage said “In a 52-48 referendum this would be unfinished business by a long way.” referring to a decision in favour of Remain. But when achieving just that with Leave he is keeping quiet and not calling for another referendum. He announced his intolerance with a close result before the votes were cast, and yet the Leave campaign are brutally critical of the Remain campaign being outspoken about the very same result. Win by a margin you disagree with is ok but lose by the same margin it’s unacceptable. Shut the fuck up, idiot. Remain are the ones saying what Farage said himself, “This is unfinished business, you pug ugly, racist cunt!”

We also now have a parliamentary petition, set up before the result in anticipation of a vote to Remain, by a Leave campaigner that has been hijacked by Remain for a second referendum. It’s a twist of irony very similar to Farage’s 52-48 unfinished business. The winners prepared for defeat, they had no plan to win and are now crying about the opponents doing everything that they had prepared for, another battle. The result was so close and all of the bullets the Remain side are now firing were made by the winners. Thanks for that. Its made life a lot easier for us, dickheads.

Maybe I should go into detail about all of the Leave voters who openly admitted they didn’t know what they were voting for or that they didn’t understand the facts, or just thought that a vote for LEAVE meant you could go down the road and knock on Mohammeds door and simply say, “We won, LEAVE!” but I won’t, its too bleak a path to tread at the moment given the rise in hate crimes and racism we’ve seen in the last five days.

And the simple fact that Remain protests in London were not reported by the BBC on its main news site, and only mentioned in brief on Newsbeat, is incidental of a public broadcaster that has a remit to fulfil that includes, ‘Shut up and do as you are fucking told!”

This aint over by a long stretch. The worse is yet to come.

To Be Continued, I’m sure.


Note: I was talking about Brexit and the fallout today and I had to laugh at this comment by a colleague. It was said at the height of a conversation that was escalating quickly to give context, “It’s amazing we now want to send all black people back where they came from, given half a chance they wouldn’t be here anyway, didn’t we drag them all here from Africa at the barrel of a gun to do all of the work for free in the first place?” – I’m paraphrasing the comment and adding my own slant of course, but it has some truths. Work for free, now I’m rich, FUCK OFF is the establishments angle. How arrogant of us to include the word Great in our countries name. No ones moaning about immigrants when they benefit from it, and politicians can justify ill treatment of everyone by blaming them. That’s the oldest political trick in the book. Divide and conquer I think they call it and race and nationality is the simplest way to do it. They do it so we take the eye of the ball and don’t keep an eye on what they’re doing. Classic bullshit, that’s politics!


You Rope If You Want To, I Rope when I EU.

Too many lies have been spoken about our position in Europe, our new position in Europe if we stay and the benefits of not being in Europe at all. So on the eve of the referendum to decide the entire future of our country and it’s standing in not only Europe but the World, my words are merely wasted moments, and time spent doing something when I could’ve been doing something else or doing nothing which is preferable.

But I feel so strongly about the breathtaking election that we have had forced upon us by domestic bigots, racists and selfish, self interested pricks from political movements that play to the lowest common denominator, to write these words.

We are, and have been for many weeks and months now tightrope walking politically. Our Prime Minister, who I’ve hated since his inception in his role, is my ally on this argument and it annoys me. It annoys me because he’s so awkward and untrustworthy with his facts and figures and truths, but not as annoying as the Brexiteers, or cunts as I call them, have been confident and outgoing with the utter lies, deceit and unqualified, undiluted bullshit that they have ladled on to the people of this country through the tabloids and TV media that they own or have access too.

What angers me is the sovereignty debate. We are a sovereign nation, inside the EU. We elect representatives to the EU parliament; and despite the ‘policy people’ in Europe being 28 people nominated to a committee by 28 parliamentary democracies of 28 countries, with no direct powers themselves; all of their policies are passed on to our elected representatives in Europe for rubber stamping before becoming compelling ideas that we choose to accept into law; we are told that the EU is undemocratic, its not. Don’t hate the rule makers, hate the governments that you elect, that elect them, who then let elected Euro MEP’s, who we elect, vote on their ideas.

The UK takes advice from its own parliament which is elected by its own people, the EU and individual sovereign nations in Europe (that too are all sovereign, democratic entities), before accepting laws that are rubber stamped in European Union ‘law’ by people, MEP’s, who we elect. And yes granted, we only elect our own officials and some of the decision makers are from France or Belgium or German et al, but they too have the same situation, where decision makers are from Italy, Britain or Poland. That for me is the crux of the anger and fear for bigots, they say “The French are making laws for us” without even considering for a second that Britain is also making laws for them, through elected representatives. It’s so basic when spelled out that it’s laughable, that’s why I point it out here. Many Britain’s think we are passive members of a group of countries that tell us what to do, when we are just a member of a group of nations that we can already effect as much as they can effect us. But I guess racists, nationalists and bigots can’t gain any benefit from knowing we are just as much a problem as a solution in the situation.

The UK is the 5th biggest economy on Earth, a top seat table sitter at NATO and the United Nations, a military powerhouse internationally, a financial monolith only bettered by New York and currently the only country in Europe with a deal that sees a tidy rebate, it’s own currency over the Euro and an exclusion from the Schengen Agreement that means we already are excluded from the free movement of people throughout the European Union. Sounds like a pretty sweet deal already and in return all we get are human rights, workers rights and health and safety rules that we never had or would have had under our own rule, certainly not as defined and protective of the individual.

And yet a bunch of radical and foolish nationalists, who are already millionaires and have the means to take care of themselves, decided that this was not a good enough deal and so used the freedoms that we extend to them in the democracy that we all cry so loudly about, to form a coalition of individual politicians from all parties as well as ridiculous political movements such as UKIP, to drive us out of the European Union because they think that we spend too much on the European Union, all based on lies and false figures, just so that they (we?) can spend that money saved on projects that they would never, ever even consider after an exit from Europe, they won’t invest in the NHS! But they say they will because they want to con us all into thinking they can achieve some ideological position where the United Kingdom is now “free” and “fair” from “Johnny foreigners dictate” so that we can build a “utopian society” that is frankly unreal and beyond unlikely.

They want to isolate the country from markets it relies on, from allies we’ve had for eighty years, jeopardise our economic future as well as the current mutually beneficial business ties we already have in Europe, jettison a free trade of goods and services in favour of flag waving to the rest of the world, just to prove a point that the rose tinted spectacles they have of how the UK once was, when it ruled the world (at the barrel of a gun by the way) and had an empire and was actually important. They want and think that is still relevant. It may be to their own personal, ridiculous ideology of the way things ought to be, but its dinosaur politics in a much more evolved time. They scream about the fear of foreigners despite being descended from foreigners or married to them or just scared of them (probably because they know they can do a better job than they can) but it doesn’t stop them shouting loud and hard just in case a few ignorant or idiotic voters are within earshot, gotta get those votes where you can!

I just feel that the louder a politician has to shout the more desperate his claims are. Make a case that is sensible and people will buy it on its merits, shout and scream and lie with a bare face and you’ll get no where. The louder you scream, the more questions people ask along the lines of ‘Why is he having to shout so loud?”

If the Leave Campaign had made a sensible, reasoned argument, just once, I’d have stopped and considered it. But they haven’t. I’m open to suggestions and facts if they are facts. I could vote to leave just as easily as anyone who is determined too but I can’t and won’t based on the campaign we’ve seen. Its been lies, lies lies on the Brexit front from day 1. And I don’t want to exonerate the Remain Campaign, they’ve dropped the ball and talked shit too on occasion, but they’ve dropped nothing like the endless and continuous lies that the Leave Campaign have and when I hear a campaign of lies I see a campaign I cannot support. It would be treason in a debate like this to support such bullshit.

I fear what we’ve lead ourselves into and where it may take us. But I hope that we vote to remain and hopefully, if we do, as the only nation in the EU to hold such a referendum it strengthens our hand. Because if we remain after such a vote we can only be empowered because no other member of the European Union will be able to stand up and say, we endorse the union in 2016 with a vote by our people, the rest are still endorsing the 1970s, 80’s etc.

Nothing like this has happened before in the EU. It may not again but if we leave it could start a chain reaction amongst nationalists that could destroy the EU and leave us with an uncertain future.

Let’s not forget, us Europeans have a history of falling out. But it would be good to do any rowing diplomatically as one, rather than risk any of those pesky wars we used to have. Remember? Remember when millions of people died for nothing but someones short term thinking and ideology? Want that again? Do you?

I thought the bad old days were behind us.

And I still hope they are.

We are Europe, I am European, British, English and Yam Yam all at once. I hope I can say I’m still European at the close of play today. Together we are stronger and so is the future. I hope my great country isn’t scared of being friends with buddies, old adversaries, who forgive us and apologise all at once, for the past with handshakes and warmth; that could easily be poison tomorrow.

It’s up to us now. Make your vote count. I hope you’re with me.


Pointing fingers leaves the fingerless out and ignores the actual issues.


So a guy walks into a nightclub in Orlando and shoots fifty people dead with guns he obtained legally.

Sounds like a line from a sick joke that no one wants to hear. Cus it would be shit. What’s the punch line? “And they turned out to be fifty Englishmen and the Asian guy who did it was upping the anti in reply to the fifty weird things the Irishman and Scotsman did.”

Well, the recent massacre of innocent people in America has shocked anyone with decency and hope of a better tomorrow. It sure has. It seems that if you are that way inclined, and you are Muslim you can act with impunity to further a narrative of fear and hate and tag yourself to a sickness in this world without any link to it other than your own selfish fear of people who are different to you, just so you can justify it.

I can identify two issues in a terrible event like this, the criminal act and also the need to justify it by the perpetrator so that they might have some meaning to someone, somewhere who will uphold their actions as justifiable. The killer is a selfish ass-hole, plain and simple. A dyed in the wool cunt who cannot justify his own failures in life so he takes the lives of people who offend him with their own openness and honesty with themselves and the world. He’s a disgusting cunt who would’ve been better off aborted by his mother and fanny farted into a Petri-dish for incineration. He is but a cunt of a being who cannot be called human. He’s not anything but that. Not anything else. Fuck him.

I can’t begin to imagine what life is like if you are a person of the Muslim faith living in the West. I get sick of hearing how Muslims are our enemy and how they are attacking our way of life. Our way of life, is their way of life. People, whoever the people, want to work, want a home, want a family, and want the freedom to spend spare time doing what they want. Some of us play Xbox, some of us drink, some us go to Mosque, but we all want a peaceful environment and a safe place to do it all in. Some of us actually go to Mosque and play Xbox, it’s not a mutually exclusive deal at all. I’m just sick and bored of all of the pigeon holing.

I’m not a Muslim but I know Muslims are like me. They hold different beliefs of course, but at the basic level we’re all the same. I’m as bored of people killing in the name of Islam as they are. And they are. Muslims are sick and tired of death and destruction in their name. Muslims are not the enemy of anyone, they are people. They are people who are trying to live their lives. We cannot continue with the ridiculous, divisive narrative of separation that sees people with a Koran under their arm as the enemy. It’s fucking stupid. If the 2.5m Muslims in Britain were our enemies we’d be looking at civil war, but we aint, surely if you’re a bigot or a racist you have to ask why? And the answer is so simple it makes you look stupid for wanting to ask it, they are watching X Factor with you, not plotting the end of the world. It’s fucking simple. They eat chips, they watch football and they queue and moan about the weather.

And so I return to what I opened with, the Orlando massacre that has made global headlines with its senselessness.

It’s a hate crime and its terrorism, neither one or another, it’s simply both. Terrorism is born out of ideology, often a sick political ideology as all terrorism is, and is targeted at a group that they disagree with and hate. Terrorism has no religion, it never has. It’s been labelled in the last few decades but really it is a warped idea that latches on to something tangible in the real lives of real world people to try and gain some justification and traction. But is largely ignored by many people that are unfairly connected to its poisonous attempts to be righteous simply by the association the terrorists try to give it.

I sometimes wonder if I’m the only white, working class, atheist, male that thinks like this. Largely everyone I know opposes my point of view. They consider it some wishy-washy, liberal, weak point of view. Which of course angers me only privately because I’m too awkward and quiet to shout about their ignorance to their faces for fear of having to have a stand up fight about an idea or an opinion; that would just be ridiculous and is simply beneath me and anyone I dare question despite how much they insisted on stamping on my throat.

I think that’s the difference between the right and the left, the level of swearing, contempt and violence. I suppose it goes with the territory. It’s a kindness I suppose because the silent anger of liberals everywhere would cause more damage than the in your face, me-me-me, selfish, bullshit, anger that we see in the world today causing so many deaths, so much destruction to individuals, families, communities and countries, these selfish pricks would end the world as we know it given half a chance.

If only liberals could harness that anger, in an acceptable way, we’d see a better world. One where your faith is not the headline but the crime you committed backed up by nothing than that crazy ideology you subscribed to on the back of being a bit annoyed with your own self and station in life.

It’s a difficult situation for liberals and Muslims alike in 2016. Change one mind at a time, with hope, is all we have. We need to up our output and change the world for the better because at the moment it’s on a path of self-destruction because the weak minded, comfort zone, social media and apps that deliver food dickheads are winning and they think everything is fine… and getting better with every bullet, bomb and torturous death.


The world is full of them. But we can’t let them win.


Send the buggers back, put up the shutters, and die.


Let the nationalists win, because that’s all the EU debate is about, will the racists and nationalists win?

It’s not about economics, public services or the future. It’s a game of poker between the dinosaurs and the future. A battle of ideas.

Are we an idea that can be marketed in The Sun or the Guardian?

Britain gave the world the modern style of free and open parliamentary democracy, co-operation and hope for all people to maintain freedom.

A vote about the future of everything has become a debate about immigration and a vote about the cult of celebrity when it should be a debate about the facts, the future and the effects of staying in or leaving.

I’ve never seen a more foggy debate about anything.

Lies, bullshit, self interest and fear rule. But only so that people of weak mind and undecidedness are commodities available right up until the last second before the ballot box opens.

People need to do their own research or sell this country down the river because of lies, bullshit, self interest and fear.

Europe isn’t our enemy.

Well not yet anyway.

Don’t cry, you can always move to Europe when things get tough when we are isolated and independent to let the Tories have absolute power. Man! We’ll make even North Korea look like a more attractive place to live.

Peace….. hahahahahaha. We can dream.

Brexit. Rhymes with Fucked It.

Our decision, the vote to decide the future of Britain in Europe, is now less than a month away. Depending on which poll or which newspaper you read the out campaign are ahead as are the stay campaign and we are going to be booming economically regardless of what we do or completely bankrupted and all out of work too.

We have on the stay campaign, Adolph Hitler and on the leave campaign ISIS it would seem given some of the most ludicrous arguments being put forward by either side. It really is a case of schoolboys from Eton, who’ve both forgotten to bring teacher an apple, throwing mud at each other in order to get the gold star that neither of them have worked for or earned.

We have a leader in David Cameron with little charisma singing one tune and Boris Johnson who has charisma that oddly disappears quicker than an Alka-Seltzer in water, if scratched, or touched by a strong wind. A pair of wallies leading an unbelievable decision that will shape the future of this country for the next thirty or forty years when both of these clowns are long gone, retired, and dead. Mates from school with points to prove to make up for all of their differences whilst at school. A couple of point scoring idiots who want to be able to claim victory rights at the next Bullingdon Club Old Boys Reunion, the loser has to fuck a pig in the face, act like a bumbling buffoon, or some shit like that.

Let’s not forget that these pair of spoilt, rich, privileged, selfish, hoodlums has already written into history a get out of jail free card by making us all make the decision for them. When it goes great, or goes tits up, they will always blame the British public for voting for it and never mention the money, time and effort they spent in winning a bet they made decades before when they rowed in a dormitory, late at night, about who would be the bestest person ever to win a two man argument between two mates who would be given free passage into a public life that guaranteed them both (more) riches and power thanks to circumstances.

And despite this bleak description of a serious circumstance we have to make a choice.

And I choose, stay. Stay in Europe. I’m not scared of immigration because we already have control of it. I’m not scared of Turkey wanting to join, because we have a veto over their membership and I’m not scared of being told what to do by an unelected committee because we do have a say, the people who actually rubber stamp the rules into European law are elected by us and we have sovereignty as a nation to veto rules that are un-British or simply retarded. I also like being given top down rules by a group of nations that protect human rights and the environment. Things we will lose with the cross of a pencil if we are stupid enough to think that a Tory government, independent of consequence, would even consider keeping them. Individual rights do not sit with a Tory government. Have we learned nothing from the past? The fact that two Conservatives have the reigns of both arguments is a bitter pill personally for me to swallow. It does add more fog to an already cloudy debate.

The economics of the whole situation seems to play a big part in the debate but does anyone really think that Europe as a trading block isn’t working towards greater economic ties with China or Argentina, or Brazil or India? The idea that being out of Europe means we can trade with the rest of the world more easily is flawed. The EU does have an aggressive attitude towards trade, it may take time to write and ratify the deals but they are being made. Our absence from the club will affect our economy, that is without question. The EU is likely to become the major partner of all of those countries when it comes to trade. Outside of it you have to ask yourself one question. Will China deal with Britain and its 70m-ish people or will it first deal with the 300m-ish EU zone first? I know what I’d do, just out of blind capitalism and opportunity.

As far as defence goes, the EU has helped, but not solely maintained, peace in Europe. Peace in Europe has risen from two brutal world wars and a general lethargy of land locked or island locked nations for Empire building. Empires are no longer built from the stealing of land, as some recent appearances on the map will find out. But it’s a fact that Germany knows it doesn’t have to embody strength by invading Poland and France when it can sit back and reap the benefits of being mates with Poland and France. No one died from a trade deal or a diplomatic deal or a data sharing deal. Someone might get spam emails or maybe a new job, but no ones choking to death in a shower wondering where their belongings, hair and gold teeth ended up.

The decision we are making is easy and stark. A better EU deal or leave. We already have a good deal with the EU despite what the racists and nationalists would have you believe. I’d take a better deal all day long. Keep the membership, the influence and the economic benefits. It’s more advantageous for us than solitude and lots of men in Union Jack T-Shirts and tattoos shouting about unemployment being caused by those frogs legs and sausage munching Europeans withdrawing investment in all of the industries that we rely on that are already owned by them. Deals are deals, they are rubber stamped, don’t cry when a trade agreement becomes void because we voted to change the parameters. It doesn’t work like that. The number one bullshit argument in this whole debate has been immigration and we know that immigration brings more than it costs and the Schengen agreement is something we, as a European Union nation, opted out from as an Island nation, so we control immigration into and out of our island. There is no free movement of people into the UK at all.

The lies and bullshit about the European Union are more well known than the facts. I’m not saying it’s perfect, I’m not saying it benefits us all of the time, but the cost and effort of being a member is outweighed by what it brings to our table.

And as a the 5th biggest economy in the world, a UN security council permanent member, a NATO member and the fathers of democracy and the rule of law we should stay at the table we helped to create. If we leave now we are just a spoilt kid taking his football home because he was asked to go in goal for ten minutes of headers and volleys. No idea about the big picture, just wanting to satisfy our immediate urges without considering the consequences later on.

If we do leave, moaning only please from the ones voting to stay in.

Otherwise, we should shut the fuck up and remember the devastation we brought upon our children and grand children through our own clueless ness and selfishness and right wing nationalism.

The world as it exists right now is uncertain, it’s complicated and it’s downright dangerous. We cannot swap our place at the top table just so we can wave a flag and dream of the good old days. Good old days that we built back then on the help and support of many nations around the world that sacrificed a lot so that we can even be here at all.

No one seems to realise that. We are great because we have been great, together with many nations, for centuries. The world is moving towards more tolerance and togetherness and we are voting soon to decide whether we want that or whether we want to be isolationists, living in the past, and dinosaurs with rose tinted spectacles of how thing used to be. Tomorrow surely is more important than yesterday?

Together we are safer, stronger and more prosperous.

But you can’t say it. Somehow wanting the best for yourself and your friends, family and your country isn’t cool, right or acceptable.

What a time to be alive. Our voters can be more destructive than anything the evil doers and the enemy of freedom could ever wish to achieve. It’s up to you and me, I guess.

You won’t see it reported but this vote is big. It’ll ratify our destiny. I hope we don’t fuck it up with patriotism, flag waving and a Vera Lynn sound track.


Un Fin.

Like a serial killer returning to the scene of his crimes I’m back writing here after being adamant a month or so ago that I wouldn’t. (Well, apart from one drunken Wolves rant slip up in April…)

I’d like to say that I don’t know what happened but I actually do. My dog, Tim, had to be put to sleep on the 16th of March after being my homey and shadow since September 2004.

I understand that losing a pet dog may not mean anything to people who don’t have pets or can’t stand dogs and I know that people would think that a dog is not a person so I should shut up, but I’ve known more than my share of death when it comes to homo sapiens that I’ve known and loved and sometimes it can be the loss of a dog that brings everything to the surface.

The problem with his death was the loss of an innocent soul. He had no agenda, he wasn’t trying to get rich quick, he didn’t envy someone having a new house, car phone or TV. He had his immediate needs that consisted mostly of weeing and/or shitting, eating and a comfy space to flake out then deny the farts he emitted in industrial quantities whilst horizontal on his awakening.

I could moan and groan about my problems for hours and he never judged me or got bored and walked away, he just looked at me with eyes that said, ‘In a minute when he shuts up, I’m going to ask him for some of that shit he’s eating’

He knew the rules, played the game and always made me smile.

He was my partner for every blog post here, and with me every minute of the research and writing on everything else I’ve ever published.

As an old man he was a constant worry. I’ve shot out of work on more than one occasion to make sure he was OK. I guess I’m lucky to have pet loving colleagues.

He cost me an arm and a leg at the vets to treat his thyroid problem, his arthritis and his sticky eyes. I almost miss beans on toast for tea because Tim needed medication, crazy really.

And I could talk about him for hours, but it would be meaningless and without context to a stranger on a blog.

But if you have a dog, have lost a dog or just love dogs you already know what I want to say.

I’d have never thought that a little black terrier could have such a deep impact on my life. But I’m glad for the time we had together and I’m glad I did all I could for him and his ailments of ageing and illness and that he didn’t have to suffer during his life and went peacefully when the final decision had to be made.

If there is one thing I envy him it’s that. Had he been a human and I’d assisted his death I’d be serving life now. What a species we are. The law is more humane to animals than humans.

But that’s a rant for another time.

Tim, eating Maltezers and Pizza just aint the same without you.

Rest In Peace.

Tim just catches his breath after a long walk along the beach.